emotions, vines, candy floss

i certainly know emotions are hard to ignore, and when emotions become a link between people, it is like a vine because the longer it is left to grow, the harder it is to remove it from the tree trunk. truly it has been more than a month or so since i last saw her and talked to her, but i must admit the emotional connection still lingers, like how strands of candy floss would cling on to the centrifuge after you pulled out the clump. i miss her but she is just too far gone. i doubt there's any possibility of a reconciliation, and i really hope she'd stop hoping for one because its going to hurt the both of us.

the split gave me an opportunity to do a lot of other things, like say bodybuilding and also catch up with alot of my friends whom i've not seen for some time. and also not forgetting those that just returned for vacation but had to fly off again... damn what a waste. not to mention i bought xbox 360 too, and i'm only halfway through Burnout Revenge though i've played it for some time now. now the next titles i'm going to get are Gears of War and Call of Duty 3. and i'm certainly waiting for Halo 3 to appear, and who knows what other games that would spring up next year.

happy with life? well i feel like there's something missing, He knows, and i have to do something about it. apart from that, this feeling of being incomplete makes me feel alienated from the world; as if someone had strapped me up on a slingshot and shot me up into the sky as i watched the world shrink to the size of my fist. this new year is going to be different, because i'll set realistic resolutions and goals that i would like to achieve in 2007, and i'd probably list them out for all to see. however, i gotta think of them all first yea?

and for those of you who know me and is reading this, i wish all of you a joyous 2007 ahead. for those who don't, have a joyous 2007 as well as make a new friend today yea? and if you still don't get it, then just stay happy and be merry.

and now for prayers...