crying hearts, teary eyes

i can't sleep. the feeling that this gives me is crap. it's certainly not nice to have tears rolling from your eyes every night for the past week. because it sucks. yeah it sucks. to think that i'd be able to handle it well, i beg to differ. then again, i can handle this.

there's this song which i've been listening over and over again, partly contributing to how i've been feeling, but i feel that the lyrics are very meaningful and touches the heart:

I guess you're the only one

That nobody changes

I guess you're the only one left standing when everything else goes down

You're still the only one

You're still the only one

yea and that's how the chorus went.

anyways i find that this holiday season is kinda being a buggeration because it'll only mean that i'll be spending more time at home and doing nothing. sucks. apart from probably going to the gym, yea maybe hang out with a couple of friends or do stupid stuff, that would probably sum up the year end for me.. or maybe if you'd like to change it for me?