Friday, February 27, 2009

be grateful

we should be grateful for the things that are given to us, as well as the good things that were done to us. there are people i know who choose not to be grateful, especially when it causes them to subconsciously link their thoughts to a bad memory. after all, we are only human.

i am truly grateful for all that has happened, be it good or bad. that is how i am able to move forwards in life without regret. if i hadn't been beaten by a leather belt, a feather duster and a clothes hanger, i would probably not be in a good school studying right now. probably mixing with the wrong company and doing the wrong things.

i am grateful. my life is in check. i control it.

Monday, February 23, 2009

dark days are good days

dark days are best for reflection. like today, the sky was overcast, and it gave me another opportunity for my personal reflection.

as the birds chirped all around me, i could sense an overwhelming feeling of freedom run through me. life is about choices, and sadly, in this world, freedom has not been given its chance. everywhere, i see people slogging their asses off, working for money. money is the blood that drives our lives, and not blood itself. life, is all about money.

in school, i see characters. people who make obvious efforts to make an impression, to leave a mark. efforts that are too obvious that sometimes, it makes you think about what they do. it is true that success comes not without hard work, but hard work doesn't always attribute to success.

many a times i have told people around me how much i dreaded going to school. i am learning the same thing as all others do. what makes me unique, what makes me stand out? i believe that studying the same thing doesn't allow me to do so. then i looked at those who are very much passive, focusing on their studies all the time while secluding themselves from the outside world. all i can say is that failure would befall them.

failure is a subjective term, and is often compared to success. personally, success is greatness, and the ability to live the life i've always wanted. happiness, freedom and a life that falls in place, at any place in time. that is my success. i want wealth, both with money and life. i want to swim in an ocean of money, and in the sea of life. i want to be full of them.

and i often think of the future. how it would be like, and how i would live it. my future is always dark, in a literal sense because i imagine my life in the future, living in a penthouse with a lovely wife, admiring the tears of heaven beat down on the people beneath.

to those of you reading this, let me post you something to ponder about. how do you want your life to be? living on margins, sufficiently paying off debts of your loans, be it cars, credit facilities and housing, with your paycheck? you would rather work to make someone else rich, and make it barely through life, rather than work to make yourself rich? would you still choose to remain ignorant at this stage in life and take it as it comes? would you let life control you, or would you rather control your life? would you rather sleep now and enjoy your dream, only to wake up in cold sweat knowing that your life isn't the way you wanted it to be?

wake up friends. you are on the wrong side of the bed.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

a tiny reflection

a man, once tired of his life, decided to take a journey through the desert. he thought that if he were to survive the journey with whatever limited supply he has, then he would be fortunate indeed to even make it out alive. after all, he was thinking of ending his life on that journey.

as he embarked on the journey, he began thinking of the events that have happened in his past, and he began cursing and swearing every time he thought of something really bitter. and he thought to himself, "why can't you make the pain end right here and now?!"

3 days into the journey, he had completely exhausted his rations and was starting to feel light headed. his bottle was almost dry and the scorching sun beat down on him mercilessly. it was as though he was being whipped by a thousand demons that were out to torture, but not to kill him.

as he trudged on inch by inch, he saw an oasis about a hundred metres away. he smiled, and said, "bah... this would only drag on my misery!"

in spite of all the negativity, he decided to carry on his journey to the oasis.

upon reaching the oasis, he began gulping down huge scoops of water like a mad elephant. he splashed some water on his face as he felt all the pain melt away with each trickle of water down his face. just then, did he realise that...

he forgot to smoke the pack of Next Chill Menthol he had brought along with him throughout his journey!

as he lit his first cigarette and took in the first puff, he began thinking more about his life. and all he said after that was: Life is Good.

and i'm gonna have my first stick for the day now. enjoy!