painful photocopy

being able to let go would mean that one has overcome his/her obstacle, challenge to troubles. well that's what i think. at least maybe a couple of years back. but i realise letting go means that you are beyond that stagnating level of maturity you've been stuck at. learning to let go of something takes a great deal of effort, maybe more of 'mental effort' than 'physical effort'. but i must admit sometimes mental pain can result in physical torture. after all, the mind and body has a subtle connection.

i went to starbucks today. with who? heh... i won't say. and i decided to go because i wanted to get away from the four walls of my house, and to get some fresh air. and also to read a book i just bought. i must say it is certainly better than reading a book at home, unless i have a personal library at home with a full time barista at my expense.

the night air was fresh, and chilly with the occasional breeze. i sat outside because i thought the air-conditioned interior would freeze my brains dry. i plucked in my ipod, blared my favourite music and indulged in my reading.

the music was great, from my ipod i mean. it was Avenged Sevenfold's latest album, Avenged Sevenfold. yes, a self titled album. funny i thought, because it is their fourth album. and usually band produce self titled albums when they release their first album. oh anyways i sidetracked.

it is indeed distracting to have people walk in front of you, and around you for that matter while you are reading. even if they were extra terrestials i'd catch a glimpse. but then there was this person that looked like you, only scrawny. other than that, the short 2 second glimpse and the side profile was uncannily similar. that shook me up a little. no, a lot. why? why must that happen. and i don't like it. its like an injection of food colouring into your brain. no actually its not but what i'm trying to bring across is that the whole mind gets so knocked up that you'd experience a 5 minute relapse.

then it got my thinking; there are indeed many people that look similar. in facial appearance at least. what they do to their bodies is, well, up to them. piercings, inkings etc. it is strange to think that you could have a clone elsewhere, but then again, with 6 billion (and steadily increasing) people in this world, you are just another photocopy of another. or maybe the other is just a photocopy of you...

and think deeper. how many centuries have past since the world was created. how many billions, no trillions, maybe bazillions of people have lived and walked the face of this earth. yup, keep counting. there's bound to be duplicates. and take for example twins. there's living, walking evidence that 2 people can actually exist on the same space-time continuum looking the same!

amazing. wow.

i spent 2 hours at starbucks. after the completion of the first chapter i decided to head on home. almost half past nine and the cold night air seemed to get even colder. oh and what about the other person?

there was no one.