tired and on saturday

well it seems that i'm finally back from work. field camp has been nothing but fun, but also tiring for me and especially my section commanders for their help and effort in instructing the cougar boys. i must admit they are a fun bunch those cougar boys, but they do get out of hand if you don't control them well. at least for some of them...

but anyways i was so glad to finally reach my doorstep yesterday, though i was feeling extremely exhausted and sluggish, i managed to force out a smile when i saw my dad and and siblings. and like many other tired person, the first pit stop in the house was the soft and springy bed mattress. and of course my guitar, which i then jammed the tune of Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls.

it has been raining for a couple of hours now, and somehow it makes the saturday gloomier than ever. well that's what i see from my perspective at least. but then i think again. i love the rain because it makes the skies dark, and when the skies are gray i decide how to make it blue again for me and for those around me. so many things i can do, like going to the beach (even though it's wet but the sea looks magnificent when pummelled by those rain drops), catching a movie (even watching alone can be a good experience because you'll be able to concentrate on the show more), and not forgetting shopping or even window shopping. and to end the day off, chill out at a nice spot overlooking the peaceful cityscape, or the distant sea while sipping an ice cold frap. when no one is around to accompany you, this is what you do.

i've always thought i needed her, oh how wrong was i. i'm living a love-hate relationship... with life.