down, down, drown

i'm going through the troughs of my life again, and well i must admit it isn't a very healthy thing to be caught in. i can hardly sleep at night, and i'd usually sleep with the lights on. things are just not going my way, and well i can't really expect it to go my way all the time. well firstly, my new room is infested with a host of insects that apparently knows how to hide themselves from me. i always get insect bites at night, and the worst thing that happened so far was waking up to a swollen elbow. and secondly, the roof would leak. rainwater would somehow trickle from the crevices and drip onto the right side of my bed. yes, half of my bed is now soaked, and i only sleep on the other half. the bed was not the only thing that was drenched, the floor too. something like dark water. gosh everything suck.

i was doing regular internet surfing and i found this:

"i just wished we never happened, and you never came along, and you never said yes, because now the hurt remains and will forever be a thorn in the heart. why was i so stupid to have even let it happen... i hate myself, i can't bring myself to say i hate you. i do still love you. maybe. i just don't know.."

truly i feel for this guy, i know his hurt, i know his sorrows. it's kinda amazing like how many people have problems with their relationships, and well it's not that hard to find out too especially if it is posted on the net. sigh, wish i could help him out.

oh well i guess i won't be putting anything up for some time now. i'll be out in the field next weekend (oh great) and would probably only be out on the following weekend. and well what's the weekend anyways, probably hang out awhile and then have to get home to do work. maybe if i have a long weekend i'd watch football outside, and maybe catch a late show. it's raining now, and usually i love the rain, but not today. maybe next time if it rains on a sunday, and if i have no work on monday, i'd give the beach a visit. maybe i could sing a couple of tunes and cry to the sound of the rain.